I Screwed Up and Only I Can Right My Wrongs

Just a summer crush. You know... One of those crushes that are only fun when he doesn't know you like him. And the minute he finds out, your feelings for him become sour. Too bad reality struck a little too late though.

You know, I feel like a damn fool for dating this a guy. When I dated him, I swore I was top shit. He was fond as all hell. I'm talking 6'1'', smooth caramel complexion, medium brown eyes, waves from the Pacific Ocean, muscular arms, and a six pack to go along with it. His swagger was crazy and he was well respected everywhere we went.

I remember... he would be washing the dishes and he would be wearing only a wife beater. I would daydream thinking about his strong muscular arms and how it would feel if I was wrapped in them. Damn I would feel so secure and wouldn't want him to let me- okay enough with all that.

The truth is I "F" ed up. He obviously wasn't the one for me or anyone . . . may I add? My future consists of a stress-free family, a big beautiful house, a jet black puppy/dog, and a fire engine red car. That dream he was not going to be able to help me fulfill even 10%.

Well, the bottom line is I screwed up big time. I put my relationship with my brother in jeopardy for this guy, which was the biggest mistake I've ever made. I wish I could swallow my pride, apologize, and ask him if I can move back in. It has been about six months and within that time frame all I accomplished was an apology.

Dear Brother,
I'm sorry, brother. I know I screwed up. Big time. It will never happen again because no guy is worth losing you over. After seeing how much you really love me by getting over the situation and accepting me back into your life, I have developed this new respect for you. When we stopped communicating because of the situation, I was so hurt. If there was anything in the world I wanted at that time or needed at that time, then it was you. I love you, brother. I need you, brother. Can I have another chance? Can I come back home? Please?

Love WOOG